Monday, July 1, 2013
Is this all there is to it?
I have to confess some things here. I have been thinking very hard about why I started blogging and why I needed to step away for a while.
A blog visitor once told me that it was nice to come here and "see" someone who was real, as opposed to someone who portrayed this perfect life. Truth is, I stepped away from the blog because I am once again dealing with a somewhat debilitating depression and generalized anxiety. Yep, I was diagnosed about three years ago, right after my parents' separation and my uncle's death. And it's been a struggle ever since.
The one thing though is that I don't think I am sick. I honestly think my brain - or any human brain- is not equipped to deal with modern life. I spend over half of my awake time in an office, putting up with unreasonable people (today, more than all other days, as I was yelled at by someone who was borderline psycho). The pressures of modern society are to me unreasonable and overwhelming. Couple that with my perfectionism and people pleasing tendencies and you get me... A complete basket case.
But the more I look around, I find that I am not the only one who feels consumed by life but not by living. My hubby and I are really trying to align our lives as to simplify things, to downsize, and to put ourselves in a position where we do not have to succumb to so much pressure...
What about you?
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