Monday, September 8, 2014

The Nostalgia of Illusion

These past months have been the most rewarding and also the most painful... It has been the most insurmountable path I have taken so far.

It is the slow realization that most of the life sold to me was nothing but an illusion. The career, money, status... it means nothing. It is the going back in time, when life seemed so complicated, but was actually so full. It is going back when the running in the rain was the most outrageous thing a girl could do. It is the feeling of being alive. The first moments you understand who you are and fall in love with being yourself.

These are some of the things I want to live for.

Continued path into my 'quit the rat race' adventure.

Step 1: get rid of debt - Check :)

Monday, August 25, 2014

The Way of Things

These past months have been extremely difficult for me. Not difficult because something happened, but because being an introvert can be a gift, but also a curse.

As an introvert, introspection is a given, and the fact that I know and understand my feelings to a level I cannot ignore them, can be a daunting task.

However, this can also mean change. I read recently that a feeling of dread is a message from the universe (or from my big brain) that something is not right. That there is a reason for this feeling. And I have come to the conclusion that modern life has made me sick. The constant input of technology coupled with the fact that I have a VERY social demanding job have taken its toll on my personality type. My job entails dealing with people's problems all the time and their constant wants drain me. My anxiety has returned and I am doing everything I can to manage it. But you probably know, it is not easy!

Now this is not a blame game. I like and I chose my career path, but I am also mature enough to know it is not working for me. What I envisioned as a young woman, as a climber of the corporate ladder just turned out not being fulfilling at all. And honestly, it is exhausting.

This leads me to the way of things...or as things stand right now. As most people, I can't just up and leave. Nor can I tomorrow, condemn society and its dependency of currency that has no intrinsic value and move to the jungle. But I can make choices that will bring me closer to what I feel is a good compromise.

I have a 5 year plan. In 5 years, I want to quit the rat race. I will not stop working, but I want to work on something that gives me more flexibility and more time. It is amazing how many people I talk to who also feel completely burned out, overworked, stressed and down right unhappy.

Maybe I will share some of the steps I am taking to achieve this goal, but I do intend to stop by your blogs. I have missed you all and really appreciate your support.

Saturday, August 16, 2014

The Perspective of Things

Still learning about this perspective things. Fascinated with Old City (or Cidade Velha in Portuguese) in Belém. Built in the 1600s, baroque architecture, and portuguese tiles.

Sunday, August 10, 2014

View from the Top

Back to learning perspective. Tough little concept it is.

Still here. You are all amazing. Thank you for all the words of support and encouragement. I truly appreciate it.

Sunday, August 3, 2014

A Rose

It's becoming harder and harder to keep up... and I have been wondering greatly if the blog should continue to exist... 

Like a rose, there are so many amazing people in this community that makes it hard to leave.