Sunday, October 18, 2015

is there something called time?

wow, has it really been almost 1 year since I posted here? Is time really that fleeting or is it an illusion of the senses?

It has been an amazing, if not sometimes difficult, year. I have traveled, I have painted, I have doodled, I started ballet, I have dreamed.

My husband and I are now much more focused on our 5 year plan. We really want to stop working, if not entirely, enough where we are not completely dependent on it. I guess I will write more about it another time.

I think I missed this, missed this blog many times in my desire to find people who understand how out of place I sometimes feel, and how absolutely wonderful the world continues to be.

Hope to come back soon.

Sunday, December 28, 2014

The Complex Personality of Creative People

Source: artmagazinesa

Hello all, the blog will be going through some major overhaul and might be out of commission for about a month.

As I continue on this path of self-discovery, this blog has become much more than a manifesto for art and introversion. The blog is becoming more of a manifesto for all who somehow realized they are a bit cooky, quirky or maybe just off-grid. 

Special, unique, weird, quiet, sensitive, highly sensitive, artsy, creative, renaissance person, shy, and all who somehow don't fit into the mold, be it by orientation, religious beliefs, or the need to focus on life, family, friends, as opposed to things. This blog has become a manifesto to all of those who want life a little less empty, stressful, anxious... for the wanderers...

For all of you creative friends...

Thursday, December 25, 2014

The Winners are

Yeah, so the winners of the painting are:


There is just one disclaimer: Sparky decided to add his own artistic interpretation of the paintings and grabbed them with his teeth from the desk.... I promise that once framed you cannot see it.

That's his attempt at looking guilty, but I don't think he feels guilty at all...

Sunday, December 14, 2014

to give is to receive

I have some ideas of things I want to share with you in 2015. As this blog's focus changes, as my life changes, I want to share them with you. Many of you have touched my life in so many ways.... with kind words, with presence, and some with a deep spiritual connection, even though our physical bodies never met.

But first, I wanted to share something else. Above are 4 original watercolors that I wanted to give to you. Leave a message and I will draw names next weekend on the 21st.

Much love and enjoy your weekend.

Friday, December 12, 2014

From thought to truth

When I was 9 years old, I approached my dad and said: "one day I will leave home to live in another country." Well, I don't think my dad took me very seriously....

When I was 10, I used to picture my apartment would have a glass wall.

As I grew older, "leaving" was always a theme in my life. I desired to know different places, to live in different countries. I didn't have a thought out plan about this, but it was always there.

In the past several months and many bouts with anxiety, soul searching, etc., I realized the feelings I was having were not bad. On the contrary, they were a manifestation that I wanted something different for my life. So, I started my 5 year escape plan.

Today, as I look at the goals I set for 2014, and see they have been met, that I started to think about that 9 year old little girl who told her dad she was leaving the country one day... That little girl has lived in 3 different countries. That little girl lived in the Amazon region for 9 years. 

I also looked at the wall in our abode and it struck me: we have a glass wall in our living room, just like I imagined when I was little.

Jobs that I wished for, moves that I desired... all the things I thought about and that were good for me have become. In some way, they have made their way to my life.

It is also true that I wished for things that didn't come... I wished for relationships to work, for new jobs, who never came to fruition and in hindsight, it was the best thing that could have happened to me.

Our thoughts have power beyond our comprehension...really. I think about what I want to do at the end of my 5 year plan and I decided I honestly do not know. I just know that I want to take a year off to be and hopefully during this time, find the calling that I know it's in my heart, but that the cacophony of the world has made it hard for me to hear.

So just wish, dream, visualize, hope... don't be jaded by world so that you do not believe in miracles anymore.

“And, when you want something, all the universe conspires in helping you to achieve it.”― Paulo CoelhoThe Alchemist