As an intuitive introverted individual (according to my Miggs-Bryer test), I feel and experience life intensely. The curse and the gift of this personality trait is that I am extremely in tune with the energy and emotions of those around me. It is also true that the introvert in me can feel extremely overwhelmed by stimuli that most of the population think is normal.
It is with that in mind, that I recognize when my body needs to withdraw and not to interact with others. This sometimes poses a challenge, because I still live in society and society does not see isolation as a positive behavior, but as a sign that something is wrong.
It can be very difficult to explain to those around me that my need to withdraw is not associated with negative traits, but a vital need to re-establish a level of energy that was depleted by external stimuli. My need to withdraw and not to engage with others is almost as vital to my wellbeing as the air I breath. In reality, it is so important that it physically affects my breathing patterns.
I was never the type of person who had many friends, because I always felt overwhelmed by engaging with more than a handful people at a time. My world, my inspiration, my life force come from a place inside me, as opposed to the world that surrounds me. Traits such as these are not synonym to egotism or selfishness as so many think.
My need to be alone allows my brain to operate properly. Otherwise, my brain literally gets scattered with the cacophony of voices, information, sounds, visual stimulation, and energy to which I happen to be exposed to. I have learned to respect and love my intuitive-introverted self. Do not ever let anyone make you feel as though there is something wrong with you.
After silence, that which comes nearest to expressing the inexpressible is music. ~ Aldous Huxley