When I was 9 years old, I approached my dad and said: "one day I will leave home to live in another country." Well, I don't think my dad took me very seriously....
When I was 10, I used to picture my apartment would have a glass wall.
As I grew older, "leaving" was always a theme in my life. I desired to know different places, to live in different countries. I didn't have a thought out plan about this, but it was always there.
In the past several months and many bouts with anxiety, soul searching, etc., I realized the feelings I was having were not bad. On the contrary, they were a manifestation that I wanted something different for my life. So, I started my 5 year escape plan.
Today, as I look at the goals I set for 2014, and see they have been met, that I started to think about that 9 year old little girl who told her dad she was leaving the country one day... That little girl has lived in 3 different countries. That little girl lived in the Amazon region for 9 years.
I also looked at the wall in our abode and it struck me: we have a glass wall in our living room, just like I imagined when I was little.
Jobs that I wished for, moves that I desired... all the things I thought about and that were good for me have become. In some way, they have made their way to my life.
It is also true that I wished for things that didn't come... I wished for relationships to work, for new jobs, who never came to fruition and in hindsight, it was the best thing that could have happened to me.
Our thoughts have power beyond our comprehension...really. I think about what I want to do at the end of my 5 year plan and I decided I honestly do not know. I just know that I want to take a year off to be and hopefully during this time, find the calling that I know it's in my heart, but that the cacophony of the world has made it hard for me to hear.
So just wish, dream, visualize, hope... don't be jaded by world so that you do not believe in miracles anymore.