Friday, December 12, 2014

From thought to truth




When I was 9 years old, I approached my dad and said: "one day I will leave home to live in another country." Well, I don't think my dad took me very seriously....

When I was 10, I used to picture my apartment would have a glass wall.

As I grew older, "leaving" was always a theme in my life. I desired to know different places, to live in different countries. I didn't have a thought out plan about this, but it was always there.

In the past several months and many bouts with anxiety, soul searching, etc., I realized the feelings I was having were not bad. On the contrary, they were a manifestation that I wanted something different for my life. So, I started my 5 year escape plan.

Today, as I look at the goals I set for 2014, and see they have been met, that I started to think about that 9 year old little girl who told her dad she was leaving the country one day... That little girl has lived in 3 different countries. That little girl lived in the Amazon region for 9 years. 

I also looked at the wall in our abode and it struck me: we have a glass wall in our living room, just like I imagined when I was little.

Jobs that I wished for, moves that I desired... all the things I thought about and that were good for me have become. In some way, they have made their way to my life.

It is also true that I wished for things that didn't come... I wished for relationships to work, for new jobs, who never came to fruition and in hindsight, it was the best thing that could have happened to me.

Our thoughts have power beyond our comprehension...really. I think about what I want to do at the end of my 5 year plan and I decided I honestly do not know. I just know that I want to take a year off to be and hopefully during this time, find the calling that I know it's in my heart, but that the cacophony of the world has made it hard for me to hear.

So just wish, dream, visualize, hope... don't be jaded by world so that you do not believe in miracles anymore.


“And, when you want something, all the universe conspires in helping you to achieve it.”― Paulo CoelhoThe Alchemist

20 comments:

Red Shoes said...

Hey you...

You lived in the Amazon region? Have you ever written about this??

I had those kinds of dreams and hopes... such as yours... wanting to live in other countries.

I wonder if sometimes, our futures don't interlope into our present lives to give us a glimpse of what may await us...

I agree... don't be jaded.Instead, dream... be hopeful!

~shoes~

Andrea said...

This rings familiar. I always knew I would leave, and that I couldn't stay put. I also need this year to rediscover myself, and I have also been known to make a 5 year plan!! I think there is something to be said for putting the energy out there. I wrote on the shower wall every morning after my husband got the job interview for this job ''please get the job', 'please let us move to the island' and here we are.

Kristin_Texas said...

This post reminds me of a quote from my favorite retired tv series of all time, Northern Exposure: "The path to our destination is not always a straight one. We go down the wrong road, we get lost, we turn back. Maybe it doesn't matter which road we embark on. Maybe what matters is that we embark."

As for myself... I've felt lost pretty much my entire life and already I'm (blankety-blank) years old. It's mighty frustrating, especially when you have siblings - and even a niece and nephew! - that have found their true paths/talents at a young age, yet I'm still in the dark. Not to be a downer, but I honestly believe that some people are born with a "knowing" of what will work best in their life while others might never find it. Who knows... maybe in the end it really is just the search that matters. (At least that's what I'm telling myself. Lol!)

That's pretty amazing about all the synchronicities you mentioned, and right down to a glass wall! So awesome.

Kalei's Best Friend said...

I think we all are in your shoes.. I for one know there are things that I have not accomplished and that is due to circumstances... and that quote is so true- the universe plays a big part in our lives...the things I didn't get to do or come my way were replaced by other things- in the end, it all works out.

Kalei's Best Friend said...

4got to mention- your art is gorgeous! the detail is mindblowing... as far as the Amazon- I could never live there.. rainforest and I do not agree... I am very allergic to the little bugs and would be living on antibiotics.. :-(

Sherri B. said...

Wonderful thoughts... <3

Plowing Through Life (Martha) said...

What a lovely post. Our life's path, in many ways, is paved by our thoughts and dreams.

Melissa said...

It's wonderful to know that your dreams have come true, bit by bit, and maybe you weren't really aware of them consciously. Our minds can manifest great things if we let it.

Dream on!

I love the tangle you created too! (or is that "zentangle"?)

Debra She Who Seeks said...

I think that quotation from Coelho is very true. But it also requires a great deal of work from us. And it sounds like you're doing it! I have no doubt you will reach your goal.

Manon Visser said...

I hope you can have that time to just be! It is wonderful and fullfilling :)
ManonX

oklyous said...

Beautiful drawing:)

Life is a funny thing isn't it.
Well mostly not so funny in my experience, but I am almost ready to give it a go again.
Gotta keep trying.
Maybe I got a bit of hope after all.
I am off to do some more soulsearching;)

I hope you will find what you are searching for :)

Kathy, PaperPumpkin said...

Time to be...ah. Perfect. Thinking about you, Ana. I hope you enjoy a peaceful, beautiful Christmas season, my dear friend. PS. The Amazon?! I may need to hear more about this!! Love , kath

the only daughter said...

Beautiful art. Beautiful words. Beautiful hopes. >

. . . time to be. That would be lovely indeed.

Annette said...

always beautiful ---your art and your well beyond your years words xoxoxo

Magic Love Crow said...

This post really touched my heart! Thank you ;o) I believe you will accomplish everything you set out to do ;o) I love your art and I love your puppies! Mommy, feed me ;o) LOL!

Jess said...

I've found this to be true in my life too. I wonder if it's because we try to follow our hearts and when we do, we're led to the right places? I wish you much love and support in your 5 year plan, it sounds exciting. :)
Jess x

Els said...

A lovely flower mandala !
Keep on dreaming ... things will happen anyway, then follow the path your heart says you should follow ;-)

En estado de Rachel said...

Qué maravilla de dibujo y de ayudantes ;)

Saludos!!!

Sketchbook Wandering said...

Thank you for your inspiration...

Terra said...

Yes, dream and be hopeful. Sometimes being open to a path instead of steering toward a particular goal is good. I often ask God, "what do you want me to do?" and listen for the answer. Not easy to do in this noisy world. I enjoy sharing your journey on this blog.