Monday, September 8, 2014

The Nostalgia of Illusion

These past months have been the most rewarding and also the most painful... It has been the most insurmountable path I have taken so far.

It is the slow realization that most of the life sold to me was nothing but an illusion. The career, money, status... it means nothing. It is the going back in time, when life seemed so complicated, but was actually so full. It is going back when the running in the rain was the most outrageous thing a girl could do. It is the feeling of being alive. The first moments you understand who you are and fall in love with being yourself.

These are some of the things I want to live for.

Continued path into my 'quit the rat race' adventure.

Step 1: get rid of debt - Check :)

14 comments:

Almost Precious said...

Becoming debt free is a most worthwhile goal. To be free of the shackles of owing money, the burden of constant payments looming overhead, this alone would be such a weight lifted from one's shoulders.

I love your painting at the top of this post. It reminds me of a small village where everyone knows everyone by name and the days are warm and sunny and happy.

Debra She Who Seeks said...

Getting out of debt is a biggie! Always a good thing to do.

Terra said...

You are on the right and true path for you.

Optimistic Existentialist said...

"It is the going back in time, when life seemed so complicated, but was actually so full" - wow what an incredible sentence...

Jeanie said...

I love following you on this journey, Ana, because it is one I have taken and am so much happier on the other end. You are so thoughtful and introspective -- I love reading this post and reminding me of my past and as a guidepost as well. Onward!

Plowing Through Life (Martha) said...

You are headed in the right direction, Ana. I love how deep you are, and how well you know yourself. That is a great thing.

Francie M said...

Love the drawing! So fresh - just like the new you that is in the process of being born!

Riot Kitty said...

I love this picture. And good goal. Step by step, you'll get there.

Sherri B. said...

I'm sending you good thoughts as you make your way down this new path. I've fallen away from my blog lately but wanted to visit and just say hello!

Ophelia Staton said...

Your words speak to me today. Thank you!!

Ileana said...

Wonderful image and your words are full of wisdom. You truly know what life is all about, my friend. Hugs and all the best to you today and always!

Red Shoes said...

Yes.. getting debt free is a great start... and believing in yourself is also a wonderful step.

At times, it seems the only person I can really trust is myself.

*huggles*

~shoes~

Palomasea said...

"Fall in love with being yourself"....beautiful... :)
xo

Palomasea said...

P.S. Your art always inspires me....I need to get out my watercolors... ;)
xo