Being an authentic introvert is not always easy. I still have to deal with guilt, pressure, and expectations that come with being part of a family and community.
As an introvert, I need more time alone doing nothing. I need time to disengage. Because I work in a business which requires A LOT of human interaction, when Friday comes, all I want to do is forget the world exists. To some this might sound as a selfish behavior, to me however, it is a physical necessity.
When the dealings with people are ample and the time alone minimal, my body starts getting sick. My thought process gets scattered and I have a hard time concentrating. I also start to feel so depleted of energy, I feel as though I will fall like an empty sack.
So, why do I feel guilty for my need to be alone? According to the authors of Please Understand Me, Kiersey and Bates claim that introverts feel like ugly ducklings who can never be swans because they have lived their lives believing that they ought to be more sociable. Because of this guilt, introverts usually don’t allow themselves the kind of breathing room they desperately need to thrive. (Source)
In my case, however, not giving myself the breathing room I need is not an option. I just get stuck on my tracks like a mule, huffing and puffing in pure anger and do what my body needs... followed by an overwhelming feeling of guilt for not sacrificing a few hrs. of my day to social interaction.
How do you deal with your need for "time-off" and the pressures to be social?