Wild Cherry Tree Watercolor
Before I say anything, I feel the need to reiterate this: I feel so very blessed to have this little community. All of you have given me so much love, peace, laugh, and faith in people that I would never be able to describe in simple written words. This blog started without intention and it became a gift I didn't expect.
But what I wanted to say is that today I made peace with the fact I am unladylike. I made peace with the fact that my hair is this unruly thing that hates humidity; that I snort when I have a good laugh; that make-up lasts about 2 minutes on my face, on the rare occasion I remember to put it on; that I am flamboyant and exaggerated in my speech; that I curse like a sailor; that I don't care about the "dress to impress" thing; and that I don't want to play "the game".
When I was little, my mom wanted to buy me cute mary-janes to wear to school, but I wanted sneakers, "because they were better to run during recess." I wore real weird clothes in elementary school and in college I had pink or purple or blue hair, depending on the mood. I remember this girl I had as a lab partner in college. Her hair was ALWAYS perfectly coiffed and her make-up looked recently applied. I really liked her, but I realized that I would never be that perfectly put together person.
I am not ladylike. I never will be. And that's ok with me.